Monday, January 24, 2011

Infertility sucks!

So I'm sure most people that know Josh and I have a burning question as to why we don't have kids ~ and then of course there are the people who don't care or just assume what they want. Truth is, we suffer from unexplained infertility. Can't explain that to you, because no one can explain it to us. We have been trying for 4 and a half years with no success. Before we left Pennsylvania, we were seeing a doctor for almost a year, including 6 total months of the fertility drug Clomid and 3 unsuccessful cycles of IUI. These months were all monitored with plenty on ultrasounds where it was seen that I was producing beautiful follicles. However, we had no success. We would really love to have a baby, and my biological clock is not slowing down :( Will we not be complete without a baby?? No, not at all. We are complete now, a baby would just add some more blessing to our marriage. Instead we have furkids for now that we love very much. Layla, our chihuahua is 10, Cooper our Cocker Spaniel is 3, and Zoey our crazy cat is 2. We also have a cat, Marleigh, back in the states, and our cat Ziggy was put down a few months ago. A few months ago on a military spouse board another wife insinuated that I had no idea how hard it could be to travel with kids LOL Well let me tell you.... showing up in Washington D.C. with 3 animal crates to fly to S. Korea was no picnic LOL Okay, maybe I didn't have a baby buggy, but traveling with pets was quite a project. But anyways, we try not to let infertility bring us down and we do a good job with that making the best of time and do the things we want for now. Also, people in the military community really are not as interested in hanging out with you when you don't have kids, even though there are things to talk about in life besides pregnancy and kids, sadly I don't think some people realize that :( It's sad to lose friendships because someone gets pregnant, why discriminate everyone has a story and infertility is no joy ride, believe me. On top of that, believe it or not there are people that just chose not to have kids, does that mean they shouldn't be accepted? Hell No, they are people, too! You may think you know, but you have no idea until you have been there. I still haven't quite figured that out since people are people regardless of if they have kids or not because we're still really cool, fun people, but anyways...... We are happy to have each other and if God has a plan for us, we will eventually see success. Enough of my rant..

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